June 24, 2004
Is there a way to leave without saying goodbye?
I just met with one of my all time favorite students who stopped by to catch me up on things and tell me about his plans/thoughts for next year. So of course, I had to fess up that I won't be here. I hate that.
Advising students is the part of my job I love the most, and establishing a rapport, having them come back over time is what makes me feel good about how I do the job, know that I am good at it. What an amazing thing to see someone grow and evolve and find their niche (whatever it is) and to be a part of that process. Its hard to walk away from that (or, I guess, from these students since I will do this work in some form or another forever).
I know there are a lot of students here for whom I have been an important advisor/mentor/sounding board and I feel like I'm leaving them adrift. Of course, there will be someone else who will do all of that for them (differently, but just as well) so the truth is maybe its just really about this.... I will miss them, miss knowing what happens to them, miss seeing them at graduation. I'll miss them.
I guess its the danger of work that involves investing yourself in other people's lives. At some point either you or they are going to leave. So I will remember what a senior administrator (who I greatly admire) said when she heard I was leaving... "Part of building a life is being mobile. I wish her the best"
We are building a good life. A really good life.
I can't wait!
Posted by Loody at 04:26 PM | Comments (1)
June 23, 2004
Loody sings the blues
I'm sad today. Miss my sweetie....so much
SO MUCH
blah.
Posted by Loody at 04:51 PM | Comments (0)
Things that make you go hmmmm.....
So i just got of the phone with the second parent I have spoken to today who had NO idea that their child was failing out of school. How does that happen? Do the kids just lie or do they just not talk to their parents at all? I guess I never talked to my parents about my grades when I was in college but I'm thinking that if I couldn't go back it would have to come up. "Gee mom, I'm leaving for College now - dont call me in my room..I'm never there!"
On another note: I was "encouraged" to write a sentence on all the letters going out to students about their academic standing saying that I am leaving. I did it, but I'm still not sure "You are on probation...and by the way, I'm leaving...Best of luck to ya!! Just seems like kind of bad timing. But i guess that's better than having them come back in the fall looking for me.
Had steamed chicken and broccoli with peanut sauce while the other ladies had noodlies. *sigh*
Knock Knock.
Who's there?
Non-noodly Loody
Posted by Loody at 01:55 PM | Comments (0)
June 22, 2004
So maybe I overreacted
First I must say that it was not only a baseball hat with BRIDE in glitter pen but it had a full length veil attached to it....
It worked out ok though since partner of said quite person is totally gregarious and funny so she hammed it up good. So maybe its a lesson in not being so skeptical and quick to judge (but I still have to wonder).
All that aside it was really great to see them so happy, so excited about getting married, and SO excited about being able to. They are kind of our mentors in this whole relationship/marriage/partnership thing so its nice to see it celebrated.
AND they got lots of cool stuff. How soon is too soon to register??? Can we do that now?
mmmmmm presents!
Posted by Loody at 05:45 PM | Comments (0)
You made her a what?????
Why is it that people insist on doing things the way they want to instead of doing things FOR other people? All it takes is a few minutes of thought...really thats all....
So somoene is getting married on Thursday, someone quiet and reserved and private. People from work are throwing her a shower. Thats nice, gives people a chance to wish her and her partner well. I'm all for that...all for celebrating someone's happiness.
But another someone (who I won't name but is known for her candy bucket) insisted on making a GIANT baseball that that says BRIDE across the front and from all (ok just frecklegirl's) reports is totally over the top. So now poor lovely quite person has to sit through that and, no doubt, games for an hour and a half. I wish I understood these customs but I just don't. Why can't we just sit around and eat snacks and open gifts? That would be nice.
So... that leads me to say that no one, I repeat no one better make us do any of that kind of stuff. Nice tea party? Sure. Fancy Martini party? Sure. Champagne punch with a sherbert ring and bride bingo. NO fucking way.
And that is Loody's lament for the day
Posted by Loody at 01:44 PM | Comments (0)
June 21, 2004
Loody's nuts
I'm like some kind of giant urban squirrel - nibbling on pecans and sucking down decaf iced coffee...hard to know how long this will last!
Speaking of nuts. Certain people are making me just that... you know who they are, with their "hmmm" and their "well" and their castles in the sky. Some people just live in an alternate reality - what I want to know is why can't they just go live there for real (as kenny would say) and leave me the hell alone?
Loody, baby loody, and pookaloody all just want to be alone. together. with sweetie.
knock knock?
who's there
Crrrazzyloody
Posted by Loody at 03:33 PM | Comments (0)
Is it lunch time yet?
ok..so i'm hungry...i have to figure out more snacks (a girl cannot live on cheese sticks and nuts alone) and cranky from having decaf coffee this morning (did I mention that caffeine is out too?)
I'm also kind of a loss about what to do with myself today, its hard knowing that I'm leaving this job and should be starting to wrap things up but I have no motivation to do anything except look for a new job. But I've checked all the postings and its not like there are going to be any new jobs to apply to between 8:30 this morning and now but I'm obsessive about checking anyway. And trust me, that can take up many hours in the day.
I just know that any minute the perfect job posting is going to come online. In the meantime I guess I'll pass my time reading resumes for the search committee I'm on. Why do that? Because:
1. It makes me look all busy and shit
2. It makes me appreciate my own resume and cover letter. they may take hours to write but they are damn good!
3. It makes me optimistic that if we are just reading resumes now for a job that starts in August that means I can still get a job by August. Get it?
Knock Knock.
Who's there?
Don't-really-want-to-work-at-Starbucks Loody
Posted by Loody at 11:48 AM | Comments (0)
Loody Lite
So...
I just got back from the grocery store buying all the "supplies" for the South Beach diet. I've done my reading and decided its not as fanatical as Atkins (who wants to eat steak with bacon on it?) but rather seems to make sense in terms of thinking about how your body processes food.
As of now, my body processes foods by sending them right to the middles, and the middles are only extremely attractive to a certain someone. :) I wish they were attractive to me but instead I feel the interefere with my daily peace of mind (and my daily quest for dressing stylishly)
And so - I went and filled my cart with veggies and cottage cheese and other "lite" things. The first week is the most stringent, no pasta, no bread, no rice, no sugar (no fun). I went to the automatic checkout because I was sure that after scanning the contents of my cart the checkout person was going to smile pittyingly and say "Going on a diet are we?".
I'm not on the no-carb bandwagon, I swear. Just hitching a ride of the back of it for two weeks.
p.s. i decided it was a good sign that I won $10 on a scratch ticket on my way out of the store...I'm just steps away from thin AND rich!!!
Posted by Loody at 04:23 AM | Comments (0)
June 20, 2004
Loody's Peevish Post....
THIS SUCKS. I miss my sweetie. Isn't it amazing that I lived by myself for ten years and now I can't stand to live by myself for ten minutes? What did I used to do with my time? It seems like things just aren't as interesting/funny/exciting/fulfilling without her. I guess that's what it means to have found your soulmate - that your vision of the world is partly shaped by seeing and experiencing it together. But what about when you are not together...what the hell are you supposed to do then? GRRRRRRRRRR
I want to enjoy this time in Boston, to transition out of it in a way that feels good but I feel like I'm missing our life out there. Its crazy how quickly it felt like we had a home and a life there and I'm ready for it to start. I'm ready to share this amazing experience that she is going through...every tiny detail of it. Its hard to get that over the phone.
AHHHHHHHHHH....somebody give me a job! Being on the job market sucks too. I'm so confident in the work I do now, so confident that I'm good at it and well respected by my boss and my colleagues. Why is it so hard to be confident in convincing someone else that that will be true? Everyone at work is telling me how great I am, how good a reputation I have, and how much they will miss me. This leaves me with two questions:
1) why don't people tell you that along the way instead of when you are leaving? we dont give people enough good feedback in this world (not just at work but in any kind of relationship)
2) why can't those people just call up some places in California and tell them to hire me??? :) Its so hard that you dont get to use your references until you have already made it through to the interview. It leaves so much pressure on the cover letter and resume which, I think, can barely scratch the surface in conveying ME. Maybe that's why it always takes me about 5 hours to write a cover letter... hmmmm.
So thats what I think.
Knock Knock....
Who's there?
Impatient Loody
Posted by Loody at 08:53 PM | Comments (0)
miss fitsandstarts introduces... miss neverstarts
How can a person have performance anxiety about something that no one will see?
Time to look my tendency for never starting anything because I dont know if I'll do it RIGHT right in the face and stare it down!
So here goes.
Hello.....its LOODY!
Posted by Loody at 08:42 PM | Comments (0)