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September 22, 2004

Babies and pregnant women and other such things...

Me = Kind of overwhelmed right now.

Classes just started again and of course my brain has gone full speed ahead. I should be excited, but right now I'm just a little cranky and strangely enough... lonely.

Bridget doesn't like transitions.

Bridget will be back shortly after this commercial break.

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Hellllllooooooooooooo?

I think I'm broken.

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September 14, 2004

Here and gone... and in Japantown...

So my brother was here for not long enough, and I am feelin' kinda sad. We had such a wonderful time and did a lot of exploring, which I will write about in a future post (so much to say!), once I get all the pictures set.

But today, today is a banner day in Bridget's little Japanese world.

Loody and I went for noodles at Mifune in Japantown, and I had a super yummy pile of Udon.

Then we travelled over to the bookstore where I got my book of First Thousand Words in Japanese. Remember Richard Scarey books? Where there would be pictures of all sorts of cartooney little things and the words next to them? Well, it's just like that, except the words are in Japanese. I figure my first run at learning the language would be to pretend that I'm a child, because that's not so far from the truth.

It's so cute though, and offers pronunciation online! Go me!

So the next step is flashcards, because I just can't get enough. And writing practice with my new little brush pen.

We went to this stationary store and I was in colored-paper and crazy day-glo office supply heaven! Japanese imports have it all over Target, and I loves me some Target.

I got a little origami set too, which I'm quite happy about sitting and putting together. It's like a little origami disco ball. See?

I'm just praying I don't get bored halfway through like I do with knitting. I love knitting, I just don't have the attention span. UGHHHH.

Off to eat beef jerky and origami myself into a little frenzy.

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September 07, 2004

Just add it to the long list of things...

That I don't understand.

Can someone explain this whole "Trackback" business to me?

Please?

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I don't want to sell anything bought or processed...

How cool is this, right?

I found it on blahblahblog, and not only does this guy blog, he does all this random pixel art too.

But to do a pixelized version of Lloyd Dobbler is just sweeeeeeet.

"Joe lies. When he cries."

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Why would you wipe my spittle away??

Yet another reason why I love California.
As if I needed more.

Gorgeous, mouth-watering, plump, ripe, puckery sweet, cheap-ass raspberries. Come to me my ripe little babies.

In the words of Homer Simpson, "Aghhrhahchghhhhrghhhh...."

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I know that I don't know, but....

I still don't know. Don't you hate that?

I think that has been the single most frustrating thing about diving into this nursing world. It is completely new. I had no idea how to do anything before two months ago. Yes, I have all sorts of skills and knowledge and experience that I can apply to this experience, but there are so many nuances, so many things that I am aware that I do not know just that sit there in front of my face, taunting me.

It is a huge lesson in patience with my own abilities at a given moment, with my learning process, in the power of wisdom gained through experience, and in just taking a deep breath and plowing forward and making the best decisions I can with my current knowledge, but dammit, it can be frustrating as a mother!

And it's funny, because of course in any given situation there are things that you don't know how to do yet, experiences you haven't had that will provide you with a different perspective in the next phase of your life, but this is different. It's so concrete. It's so palpable you can almost chew on it. Whether it's just fundamentally knowing a skill like giving an injection, understanding what to say to a patient (or what not to say) and how to say it, proficiency at other skills you have learned so you can do them in such a way that they cause less discomfort to the person that you are working with... or whether it's the bigger stuff, like confronting issues of mortality and grief, comfort and suffering, the infrastructure of the hospital environment and even politics within the nursing staff... it's all just RIGHT THERE. There are people surrounding you that have been through it, and are at another level. You watch them work. You watch them know. And you hope that you will one day be able to do that.

I hope I will.

And I hope I can appreciate this precarious time, because it is so important, and there is so much I can gain from my awareness of being in it.

But fuckall - sometimes I just want to be able to cram it all in this tiny brain of mine and do it NOW. In the words of Veruca Salt of Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory... "But Daddy, I want the goose that lays the golden egg!"

Ok, that doesn't really apply, but it's the only thing I could think of.

Good night for real.

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September 06, 2004

Call me Pavlov's dog...

It has come to the point where all I need to hear is the first chord of the Lenny Kravitz song on TV and I am automatically glued to the tube. There she is. The little pink shirt. The little hat. Tee hee.

Will it never end?

Well, actually, I hope not.

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Oh, and....

I'm sorry, but how cute is this?

Yeah, I could puke too.

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And I'm Spent...

I'm going to try to keep this short, but that may be an impossible task given this weekend's events. After having spent about a week in bed (just because I could), I actually left the house for a number of outings. Below is the recap:

Oh, but first, I got my camera!!!!! This means pictures, kids.

Chapter 1: The Birthday (Phase I)
I spend all day Friday with L's sister in preparation for the family gathering. This, of course, involved the consumption of an immesurable quantity of wine, a cake that overflowed in the oven, and a number of other incidents involving smoke and fire. Luckily we did not burn the house down, but we came close. I have proof.

Note the flames. That's the stove.

But really, what's more fun than accidentally smoking out a party.

P.S. Even given the "stove on fire twice" incident, the shrimp came out fine.

Chapter 2: Oakland Art & Soul Festival
This was so great. Although, at some points you could hardly see past the mushroom clouds of smoke from all the doobs in the crowd. Now, I'm only complaining because a) nobody gave any to me, and b) I thought you could get arrested for doing that in public. And when I say public, I mean in the middle of a crowd of hundreds of people. One guy even had a bong.

It wasn't even like it was a hippy show either. It was Patty Griffin (another one on my list of musical goddesses) and then Los Lobos... Los Lobos really brought out the over-50-male-pot-smoking-hippie-crowd. Who knew.

But seriously, see how cool Patty Griffin is?

And Oakland... it was a beautiful day out... a little too hot (like, Boston hot)... and we all know how I hate to be hot, but it was well worth it.

And I can't forget the big-booty hos. If you look real close you can see their off-the-shoulder flashdance tops, underwear length skirts, and kneesocks. Awwwwwwww yeahhhhh.

Chapter 3: The Movie
Holy mother of god and a half. We saw Mean Creek this afternoon, and it was so intense that I literally had to pick my jaw off the movie theater floor after it ended. This one just about did me in. Surprisingly enough, there was no crying involved on my end, just a flabbergasted gaping mouth the whole time. Usually I cry at everything (including that movie What About Bob, with Bill Murray), so I don't know which is worse. But it was incredible. You gotta see it.

Next on my list is I Heart Huckabees. I almost peed my pants just watching the trailer. I have since watched it three times on the computer. It's a sickness, I tell you. But damn, it looks great.

And this was more than enough for me.....

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September 02, 2004

Livestrong.

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September 01, 2004

Ass over Teakettle.

So I am entirely too in love with the new GAP Commercials, featuring Sarah Jessica Parker (and oh yeah, Lenny Kravitz).

I find myself oogling at the television with wide eyes every time it airs, smiling like a freak, and thinking to myself, what the hell is going on here? Because for anyone who knows me, they know I'm not really like this. Especially about crushes. And especially about THE GAP.

But seriously, do I have a crush on Sarah Jessica Parker? Not really. I think she's kind of sexy ugly.

Is it the music? Well, it's a phat song, but no... that's not it.

Actually, I think it is SJP, but not in that "I am so in love with her" kind of way. Not like the Zach Braff thing.

It's just, when she comes out with the pink shirt and the little hat and dances all around Lenny I find myself in a fit of gaga. It's hot. It's cool. I'm not that cool. But that's ok. But if I were that cool, that's the cool I would like to be.

She's so comfortable in her own skin. She's turned crazy old-lady outfits into something that everybody digs. And it's not because of the mass media giants and lots of marketing planning and stuff (well, that's part of it too), but it's because she just is.

See what I mean?

*Drools*

I can't wait until it comes on again.

*Mindlessly stares at the TV waiting*

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