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August 23, 2004
Half of the time we're gone and we don't know where....
Today I'm feeling a little nostalgic, a little philosophical, a little overwhelmed, a little dreamy...
It's hard for me to believe that my first term is three days from ending. That I just spend two months without my love, completely immersed in a new life, a new place, in this work that I knew nothing about prior to starting school, and it is like everything is changing so quickly. But now it's my life, and Laura's here, and I'm the same, and we're the same, and we're different too... It's all same and different existing right now. What I have learned, what I know, what I continue to experience.... And to have been so in it and now it's the end of the beginning, and it's just strange... It's like a microcosm of the bigger picture of life and the course it takes.
I don't even know if that makes sense, but sometimes I just need to sit back and feel my life. Not just be in it. To feel that this is how it happens... and it's amazing.
Maybe it was that darn movie, or some recent conversations I have had with friends from school.
But we're just here. Right now. And it's all right there in front of us.... all of our experience that we see with clarity in little bits and pieces when we sit with it for a minute.
Today I am going to be a nurse.
Today I have a life with my love in San Francisco.
Today I am learning and being with these amazing women who have given me so much in such a short time here.
Today I miss my family.
Today is today.
Posted by missfitsandstarts at August 23, 2004 09:17 PM
Comments
Hey there,
So I randomly came across this blog of yours searching for the very lyrics that title this entry. I was drawn to your page because of the "goes to nursing school" bit as I, too, am in nursing school (Case Western). Sorry if I seem creepy, but reading your entry and profile made you sound pretty awesome, and I thought I should let you know. I also want to be an oncology nurse, but that's nearly two years away. Again, I swear I'm not creepy.
Sarah.
Posted by: Sarah at September 27, 2004 07:50 PM
